It's 5.25 in the afternoon but it's still hot. Very hot.
(Switches on the fan)

Been studying practically the whole week for tests......Lit on Thursday and Econs on Friday......now, I feel sick just thinking of facing my Hamlet text and Barnard's Econs book. Time to take a really good break.
(Turns the switch  to the number marked 2...aiyoh..so hot)

I SHOULD be glad that there's no more tests in the following week to worry about......
(sighz... still sweating like mad)
I SHOULD be happy, you noe.

I'll stop kidding myself. I'm not.
I feel my grades dipping....( not dipping actually, they've been bad ever since the beginning of this year)
Maybe I should have studied Science instead.....hmmm....
Or chosen Arts in the mainstream......(why not? competition's not so stiff there)
and it's not so pressurizing compared to Humanz.....hmmm
Nah...no regrets now

Well, at least, the teachers in the mainstream don't rank their students according to their scores and make known who are the "better ones" in class...
By the way, I think I SHOULD kick the habit of calling the other students "mainstream students".....what are we in the first place to give them a term?? "SPECIAL" stream?  My foot. Next year, if all the tutors leave (touchwood) and we have to start attending lectures and tutorials like everyone else, let's see what stream they will term us.

I hate it when people think my English's superb becos I'm in the Humanz scheme. Yes, I tell them in a bored, i've-heard-this-many-times-before tone, there are people in Humanz whose command of the language is very strong, but there are also others (like me) who happen to be in the scheme becos they prefer the Humanities subjects to Chem and Physics. But, that DOESN'T mean I have to be GOOD at them!! I'm like every normal, typical, average JC 1 kid, I come to college to LEARN something I don't know. Oh yes, speaking about learning, I'm really worried about GP. I've realized that being in Humanz doesn't necessarily help one's GP...in fact, I'm worried about my English becoming RUSTY. We haven't written enough essays, done enough Compres (unlike the other students) and "privileged" like we've always been, we are EXEMPTED from the G.P PROJECT everyone's rushing to complete before the June holidays!! You call this fortunate?

Wait...why am I venting my anger on Humanz?? For all my poor grades, I have only myself to blame. Lack of self-
motivation and self-discipline, the "honeymoon period" for me has been extended WAY TOO LONG. I've been thinking about cutting down on activities; as Chia Mei appropriately remarks," You always make yourself very busy, while I make myself free." Maybe, it's time to make myself free and start hitting the books more often.

It's NOT a really hot afternoon.
Just one of my bad days again.....
Foul mood lah, brother.